Monday, February 18, 2008

King of swords

Heidi is really the Tarot expert in our house. She's read tons of books on it and has a very good understanding of the cards. A few weeks ago, she gave me a spare King of Swords card that came with a deck that she purchased and told me to put in on my desk. (You can see it in the first picture in the previous post at the very left edge of the picture. Hint: it doesn't look like the picture in this post. That King of Swords is from the classic Rider-Waite deck.)

She's told me what it means a hundred different times and I can never remember. So I did a little reading this morning and this is what I get out of it. It's a good card for me to keep in mind. I swear that "he was gonna do that!" will be the epitaph inscribed on my grave stone. I am full of good intentions, but because I am easily distractable, I frequently lack follow-through. This is to my detriment, not only in social situations, but in work situations and other arenas as well.

So for me, the King of Swords represents the action needed to back up those good intentions. There are times in life when you just have to buck up and do the things you have to do regardless of how little you actually want to do them. The King of Swords provides that reminder to me. In fact, I finally got my flex benefits stuff taken care of after the e-mail has been sitting in my inbox for weeks. Mostly, I just didn't want to deal with it, but it was getting to the point where I really needed to, and my desire to not do it was going to cost some money. And since we can use every little bit we can get, I finally got it accomplished. And that is such a mirror to so many things in my life: I just don't want to deal with it, so I'll push it off until it goes away (which never happens.)

The King of Swords has earned its spot on my desk. He is a gentle reminder of what I aspire toward. It is on days like these (not the most fabulous) that I need that kick in the pants a bit more than usual.

Work beckons.

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